Life Of Q

I love writing monthly updates on Jude. I used to think it was a little weird why moms would do this for their babies EVERY. SINGLE. MONTH... but now I know! I don't always publish them, but I do keep drafts of Jude's monthly updates, just to have a remember each stage of his life. This past month has been so much fun with my now SIX MONTH OLD! I always say I can't believe how big he's getting, but this time I really mean it. Last year when my baby brother turned 6 months old, my mom and I thought it would be fun to throw him a half birthday party. Nothing big or crazy, just some cake and party hats. Last week when I realized how soon Jude's half birthday was coming up, I knew we had to do the same for him! Aaron and I celebrated his half year in this world by blasting the Trolls soundtrack and cupcakes.   YOU: Still waking up every 1-2 hours to eat in the night. You gave us one amazing night of sleep last week, but I guess that was just a random occurrenc...

I get a lot (okay, maybe like 3) of people asking where I get Jude’s cute clothes. Well you’re in luck.. kind of. For those of you that don’t know, I have a baby brother just 9 months older than my son! It really couldn’t have worked out any better, because Jude got all his barely worn clothes, baby bjourn, Walker, swing, you get the idea. So, I really didn’t have to buy much at all. Honestly, less than half of the clothes he has were purchased by me, so I am unsure of the stores where a good portion of his clothes came from. Everything (99% of the time) I buy for him is gender neutral. So if in the future we do decide to add another member to our family and she happens to be a girl, we can hand down to her his adorable clothes! 10/10 recommend doing that. You guys, when I found out I was having a boy I cried for DAYS! Days. I was so upset; one of the main reasons why? The clothes. SO DUMB, I know! I had just imagined bows and tutus and matching fur vests, all of that was crushed w...

I'm not sure why I'm publishing this. Perhaps to vent, give you an understanding of how those in your life who struggle with depression can feel, or both. If you have never struggled with mental illness, it can be so hard to understand what those who are, are living with. I often refer to my worst episodes of depression as The Darkness. To me, it's more simple that way than trying to explain the complexity of such a feeling, every time I feel it. You know how wearing sunglasses dims the color of everything? And when you take them off it's shocking how colorful and beautiful everything actually is? I am always wearing sunglasses. Nothing has much color, it's all a little dull. That's my normal- not the Darkness. No, no. When the Darkness hits, it's like the lenses of the sunglasses suddenly and completely darken. You can hardly see a thing. I could be having a good day, nothing in particular is making me anxious or upsetting me- then bam, out of nowhere......